In life I always tend to find signs in the world and give them a lot of meaning, for example, if I get a lot of likes on a post of some kind, I straightly interpret this as “this means I am on the right track!”, or if I am sick when starting a new job, I immediately think, “This means I should quit my current job”, as if the signs are there to lead me and decide for me what to do. And I wonder, are those real signs from the universe or an interpretation caused from an inner decision?
Today, I found myself wondering about that, and I am beginning to think it all starts with a strong firm decision of the heart. It is the hardest part to find and listen carefully to what the heart truly wants, and I am beginning to believe, those “signs” are more of reminders and reflections from nature and the universe, and it’s up to me to understand whether it’s here as an encouraging reminder or a strengthening challenge. Is this rain a sign to stop, or a challenge on the way helping the flower to grow? The interpretation if it means I should go on and this is the right path or stop and rethink about things, is actually up to me. So it means I should do a hard work of believing in my way and be at peace with my decisions.
A photo of a beautiful cheetah in the rain, captured in Maasai Mara Reserve, Kenya.
This is actually my hardest challenge of all, building this firm, strong, and stable belief that this is going to work, that this is indeed the right path. Building this strong decision that what I chose to do is the right thing. It can be expressed in the small things such as answering quickly to the question “Should I hang out with my friends today?”, or bigger questions like, “Should I move to another country?”. I’ve always been called an “indecisive person” by my friends and by myself throughout my life, but lately, in the last few years, I’ve been working a lot to improve this part of me, this person that is not good with decisions and needs signs from the universe to tell her what to do, or some mentor or a friend. I realized that even though I have always been having those big dreams, I always had this inner doubt, and I didn’t have a strong belief that it could happen. I had this fear that if I’d walk this way, the dreams would blow up in my face.
Today, after a few months of NLP sessions (with the amazing Nelly Caldeira), of all kinds of guidance and therapies, after reading a few self development books such as “The Slight Edge”, “The Four Agreements” and right now still reading “Think and Grow Rich”, and reading some more fiction books that influenced me in my choices (such as the amazing “Where the Crawdads Sing” that describes a lot how it is to live inside of the depth of nature), and after I’ve been traveling a lot, and experiencing new things in life, and having great positive talks with my good and dear friend Carolina Breeze (listen to her podcast, Cary’d by the Breeze, she is amazing and did really help me to believe in myself), I understand more and more, that dreams can happen, and even if not exactly as I wanted, there’s nothing good for me to just sit and be bitter about staying put and waiting for something to change. It’s all in me, it all starts with my belief, my decisions. So I started to create my reality, to repeat mantras that help me in my process, to build my confidence with actions towards going to where my heart leads me. Today I am more decisive, and I see when these “signs” are reminders or challenges, but I still have a long way to go and improve in this.
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Examples of mantras I read to myself:
♦ I Can make a living out of my art and talent.
♦ Every choice I make is ok.
♦ Life can be easy and flowing when I let it.
(a reminder for myself when I feel everything is challenging and dramatic)
♦ I’m allowed to be sick sometimes, and I’ll be better soon.
(I’m reading this of course when I’m sick and feel anxious about it)
I wonder, where does it find you? Do you believe in signs? Do you believe in your way? What kind of practices helped you?
A photo of me, in a magical place in Sweden, captured while connecting to mother nature
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